Day 9

So, I have no fave internet friend to date. Sooo, on to who I’d like to meet!

I’d be absolutely thrilled to meet several people. Kristen Chenoweth, Diane Sawyer, and Idina Menzel are my top picks. They are each so devoted to their craft, and so passionate. They are truly masters of what they do, and are heroines of their own earning. I discovered Kristin and Idina through Wicked, and later found them in RENT; GLEE; and You’re a Good Man, Charlie Brown. And I have grown up watching Diane Sawyer on ABC News for as long as I can remember. I recently watched the Oprah’s Master Class special on her, and she is a trooper. She’s done so many things, and has done them all happily and well. I look up to Diane for her passion and drive; and Kristin and Idina for their contribution to the arts. They’ve done such wonderful work that’s impacted society in fantastic ways, and I admire them so much for their diligence.

That’s all for today.

Ciao.

Day 7

Your ex/love/crush.

Well..this is a sticky topic. You see, FrenchChef and I kinda rushed into things. I’d like to say it’s a mutual thing, but I’m not sure I believe that. FC says it is his fault…I just don’t know. We’re all right now. We talk on a nearly-weekly basis, which is probably good for me. He understand everything. And doesn’t seem to care it took me forever to get through/over that. Which I’m still not sure I am. But, I’ll always love FC as a friend. He’s been a safe haven for me in so many ways, and I am eternally grateful.

But, on the topic of a crush…let’s just say there’s someone in the running. We both like each other. A lot. And it’s a little fast, but in a very relaxed, natural way. We’ll see what happens and if they make it to the blog. I don’t want to jinx anything. *knock on wood*

But that’s all I really have to say about this. And I guess I kinda just gave my predicament away with all the “he’s.” Hahaha. I don’t really mind. But. I’d like to clarify that this doesn’t mean I go after every “he” out there. I have mannnny straight friends. And I just don’t have feelings for them. And wouldn’t be able to bring myself to. K? K.

Ciao for now.

Day 6

A Stranger.

I’ll go with a guy from the day I went shopping with Kay and RaeOfSunshine. I was at Forever 21, and bought this really awesome vest. Super happy. But, I got to the register, and there was this really unchill dude standing there. I swear, the boy looked high or something. But, as we went through the checkout process, he was exceedingly rude and unfriendly in his tone, disposition, and mannerisms. I accidentally gave him the wrong change, and I thought he was gonna go ape on me.I hurriedly left as he grudgingly called up the next person.

And I proceeded to think about last school year, when I was in DECA. I thought about the training, role plays, and eventually District competition we had to learn to be good salespeople and businesspeople.

For some reason, this rude, unhappy, stoned out man caught my attention. Will I be like that in a few years because of who I am, and the way that I am? I should hope to goodness not. In fact, I’d love to go back to that happy, go-lucky, no troubles state I allowed myself to be in for the better part of the previous fifteen years of my life. At the moment…not quite feasible. But, darn it, I am determined! And when I get an idea, I go with it.

So…that’s the path this stranger led me to. And now I must warm my voice up for choir rehearsals and such.

Ciao. 🙂

Days 4 and 5

So, it’s a bit busy with school starting back up whatnot, so my posts may be jumbled together.

My Sibling

I have one older brother..in college. Let’s just call him Bruhthaa Man. He’s pretty cool. Very athletic guy, a total dweeb, highly intelligent. Wants to go into PT and such. Big dreams. Around family, he’s not quite so talkative. We’re not that close. We’ll do occasional things…but nothing like just because we missed each other or anything. Is that bad? I don’t know..we’re just not too alike. And just don’t really connect. You know?

 

My dreams.

I want to be on Broadway. Musicals, preferably. But I’ll take whatev. I love performing. Music and theatre are my passions and my life. I absolutely love them. Nothing on earth makes me happier at this point. I really want to be in the company of Wicked someday. And to be Gabe in Next to Normal. And be in a Jason Robert Brown show…like The Last Five Years. I want to find love. And love with all of my heart for the rest of my life. That kind of love. Which is rare, and hard for someone like me, especially, to find. But I am determined, and convinced. I will get this.

Day 3

My parents.

Well..this is an interesting topic.

I love my parents. A lot. And for not being artsy people, they support me in all of the artsy, theatrical things I do. And they let me do some really awesome stuff. They take good care of me, and I am so grateful. I know I need to be more thankful and respectful.

But. They are very…judgmental people. And sometimes come off as hypocritical. Which doesn’t do much for their evangelical Christian-ism. Especially with my friends..whom they openly don’t approve of. But at least they’re civil.

And they don’t agree with my ‘choices.’ Which hurts. Because then they try to force their views, which doesn’t help me trust them much. Not too sure how everything’s gonna play out. But I don’t quite feel like I should stay with them. Or I won’t come back, out of resentment. And I don’t want that. At all.

So, we’ll see how this all goes! I’m doing my best to remain positive. 🙂

Anyways, that’s all I have to say about that. Short, I know. But I’d rather them not know about my blog. And she’s in the other room. X)

Ciao, all.

Day 2

My crush.

Well, here’s the thing. I don’t really like anyone at the moment. I just would like to chill. I’m not really big on dating anyone from my town again because..well, they’re just not my type. There’s only one or two people who even share my passions and views. And I’d like to be with someone who I can relate to, ya know? And here..well, no one’s like me. Let’s just leave it at that. (;

But I’m content just chilling. I’d like to explore myself as an individual and my options for life. I like to like, and eventually date, for a goal of being with someone. Not just to have a title, or be with someone.

But I don’t quite feel like ranting at the moment.

That’s my two cents, babes.

Ciao. (:

Day 1

Ironic, isn’t it, that I’m starting this on the first day of the new year? Hahaha…well, at least I think it is.

My best friends.

If you were to ask me who my best friends were, I’d instantly say the Amity and MissTasty. There is so much to admire about these two.

Amity is easily one of the most talented people I know. And one of the most fun! I can almost always count on her for a good time, a laugh, and deep/intellectual convos. Always devoted not only to her craft of being a stunning performer, she is a true friend. Always there when you need her, even for little things. Watching her perform is always so inspiring…she’s a lovely lady, and works her hardest in literally every aspect of life. I look up to her in so many ways, and trust her (and MssTasty) more than anyone else I know.

Now MisisTasty is an entirely different breed. While fun and always good for talks and laughs, she is that crazy friend that you want everywhere with you to make things better. She is one of the strongest leaders I think I’ve ever met. She has so many options for her life, and I know she’ll go far in whatever she chooses. She is a true friend through and through. No matter what, she’ll stand at your side and defend you to the end. I do try to stay away from her bad side, though..it’s not fun. 😉

They have both proved again and again their trustworthiness, love, dedication, work ethic, and friendship. I am ever indebted to them, and would do anything for them. I’m working on being much better to them, because they deserve nothing but the best. And I’m bad with trust and true friendship, but they’re very patient with me. And I always appreciate it.

If you two read this, I love you so much, and treasure you more than life itself. Thank you for everything you’ve done, are doing, and will do. 🙂

Ciao.