Do you ever get that feeling when everything’s going so well, and it just feels right? Like nothing will run it? Yeah..it’s kinda nice. I’m completely in this position now, and I think I’m more at peace with everything than ever before. Not necessarily happier, thanks to much stress due to junior year, but still.It’s pretty great, no?

So, that date..Sunday was insanely terrific. We met at the plaza, which made me so nervous I was shaking. But never mind that. We had to speed off to his cheer, practice, which he was late for due to unexpected tardiness of my ride. (Lesson learned there) I just kinda sat and watched them for about an hour. Let me tell you, they are good. I’d kill myself trying to do even a couple of the things they did. Flips and jumps and lifts everywhere you looked! He left early because ‘his sister needed the car.’ We went to his house. And chilled. Snuggled up, watched a movie, shared some dinner (which his sister so kindly brought). It was a terrific first date, I’d say..and I got my first kiss. Exciting? MORE THAN YOU KNOW. This one could be a keeper. We’ll see where it goes. :)

We’re planning for another soon. More details to come.

Ciao :)

A Bit Scattered

Wow, it’s been like a week since I posted. But it completely flew by!

Show choir season is almost over, and if it wasn’t for contest music…I’d be so sad. Performing always just helps me vent, and puts me in a great mood. But, I think I’ll start exercising thanks to my psych class..endorphins and such. And, it’s really nerdy, but I got the contest songs I wanted! SO happy!!!! Defs have my next-to-last competition tomorrow, and I’m SO pumped. I have a few good, new friends coming up to watch and hang out. And we get to see our frenemy school! Yayy frenemies! :D but I love them, they love us. Healthy competition, yes? Yes.

Although, I feel as though I should get through tonight before I do anything. (You see, I am in Student Council. Third term as class president, body president next year!) I was in charge of our Courtwarming/Matwarming dance, and it is tonight. Yes, folks, TONIGHT. *cue screams of small children and lightning flashes* …maybe not so dramatic, but I’m really scared about the turn-out. Homecoming, while well-decorated, was a disaster; we’ll see.

Oh. And..I have a date on Sunday. Working out details of how I’m getting there. We’ll see. But I’m so excited. Out at the plaza. Great guy. I’m feelin’ good. Maybe a Valentine for me? (Well…he already asked me, but I’mma ask him!) :) *knock on wood*

And then there’s school..with all of these flipping snow days we’ve had I’m not quite sure I’m still grasping the concept of what it is again! It’s kind of crazy. National Honor Society induction coming up, Prom to plan, choir contest (YESSSSSSS!), classes are pretty boring. Not a lot to report. Still SO sick of this small town and the people here. Buttt..only a year and four months!

And now, I get ready so I can look sexy tonight. :D

Ciao!

Last Time

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

My favorite memory…that’s a bit difficult! I think that’d probably have to be Amity. She truly gets me, and the stuff I’m struggling with. We’d do anything for one another. Last year, as previously mentioned, we went toSan Diego with show choir and we went to the zoo for a day. We went with four of the other sophomores, but it was mostly just us….because we walk fast! That day in general was just a great memory. Being able to just talk with her, hang, and spend time together. It was great bonding for two very busy best friends, and I’ll always cherish that.

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

MissTasty is going through some rough times. But she’s still trucking through, acting like she is queen of the world. I admire her so much.

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Oh goodness..honestly, I don’t remember! Possibly one of my little cousins. :)

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Hmm..well, I’m not quite sure about one day. Does three count? That’d def be GrahamCracker. At All State Choir, she was by far the friendliest person. Inviting people to her district’s hall parties, shenannigans, and even reunions! She was fantastic.

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Again, at All State Choir. Dr Snow was our director, and she was…fantastic, to say the very least. I believe that music changes people’s lives. Especially the shared experience of creating it. And boy, did we ever! I’ll explain in a later post, though.

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

FrenchChef is easily someone that I trust above many others. But I am somewhat afraid to tell him certain things. Just because I don’t want to burden him during his senior year, and he shouldn’t have to worry about me. And…that’s the basics of it!

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

It’s a work in progress..but I’m finding more and more things I can stop picking at. Personally, I want whiter teeth and clearer skin. And I’m working for it! I feel that I’m making some good progress, but the battle is not over yet. I’m learning to…well, love myself. Corny, but true. It’s kind of nice being able to look in the mirror and look past imperfections. I also see a boy searching for who he is, and where he belongs in life. I feel I’ll find it soon enough, but I’m quite anxious!

Anyway. That’s all I have to say for now.

Ciao!

Whoo, I’m Not Doing So Great!

Wow. I’m not keeping up well AT all. But I WILL finish!

Day 19 – Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Hmm. This kid I’m talking to. I’m not quite sure what’s going on. Sometimes TheSalesman is really sweet and cool. Other times he’s just really short and kinda rude. I’m frustrated and don’t know what to think. And usually I can handle this stuff. I’m kinda getting stressed from this, which hasn’t happened before. Yes, there’s been sadness once. But no stress or big worries. I just don’t know.

Day 20 – The one that broke your heart the hardest.

To be honest, my heart really hasn’t been broken yet, per say. A little bruised. But, I’m not too big on handing it out. I’m not quite trusting, after all.

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Hmm. Well, honestly, I try not to judge people by first impressions. I try to get to know them, and then form an opinion. I mean, I’m sure I still do, a little more unconsciously about little things. But..idk.

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

To be honest, there’s not really anyone who needs a second chance. I’m happy with the people in my life. If someone else was supposed to be in it, they wouldn’t need a second chance. That’s just my opinion.

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

This may make me sound really lame…but I’ve never kissed anyone. I’m saving it for the right person. I want to make sure I don’t just give it away to someone who doesn’t really care, so I’m kind of cautious physically when it comes to who I date. It may not make sense, or make me sound like a prude or something. But I really don’t care. I wouldn’t want it any other way, and I’m happy with my choice.

Ciao!

Catching Up! Not Giving Up

This is probably dumb. But I am determined not to give up! I WILL finish this!

The person you miss the most.

I’d probably say I miss Kay the most. She’s been a terrific, terrific person for me to be around, and friend. This girl has been here for me in my roughest times, and I’m here for her as well. I love and trust her more than almost anyone else I know! She’s down at college most of the time, and with her fam and other friends. It’s a huge treat when I do get to see her, and we talk about everything that’s been going on. She is one of the strongest, most determined, loving, caring, and passionate people I know. She’s bend over backwards for probably anyone. And this girl has done so many great things, and will continue to do so! Love you. :)

Someone that’s not in your state/country

ThatBatch. She is only one state over, but still out of state. Literally one of the most insane, bitchy people I’ve ever met. I love her SO much, though. We also met through theatre this summer, and instantly clicked. We used to text like 24/7, butttt we’re just busy now. So, communication’s a little strained. But we talk when we can. You know how it goes. ;)

Someone from your childhood

Let’s go with…Nick. Nick won’t be mentioned in the blog again, so I don’t really care. This kid was my best friend all through school. Up until Middle School, that is. That’s when all the guys in my class started getting weird with me, and stopped talking to me. So, we don’t really talk anymore. But we used to have lots of nights over watching Pokemon, eating junk food, and staying up until 10, which was late in those years. I almost miss it…if he wasn’t such a jerk now. :P

The person that you wish you could be

I want to be that person who always stands up for what’s right. For what I believe in. Someone who isn’t ever afraid to help others, or pay it forward. I want to die knowing that I contributed to others in my life. Cliche, but true. One of the most meaningful things in life is pouring into others, and letting them pour into you. Whether it be knowledge, life experience, wisdom, memories, etc. It’s so important. I’d also love to be able to be a big stage star living in New York. The one that everyone enjoys working with so much, and is so funny and pleasant. Just call me Kristin Chenoweth. Haha, kidding. I’m kinda full of life cliches, but hey. It’s my life. And I only get one shot at this, so why not make it count?

Ciao!

Several Lost Days

A Deceased person you wish you could talk to.

My cousin, TheWarrior was truly one of the most amazing people I’ve ever known. She died from a motor vehicle wreck three years ago now, and I miss her. We tended to talk about…just lots of stuff. What was happening in life. Food. Our views. Religion. The afterlife. She was a Pastor’s Kid, and I’m somewhat religious…so we had some really good convos. She was one of those people you go to for anything you can think of. Problems, advice, a ride, a fun night out. Miss her.

The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain.

There are quite a few kids from school who have often given me weeks of grief over who I am and what I do. Music and theatre are not manly things, in their eyes. And I tend to hang around girls more. So, to you five, I hope that someday you realize the world doesn’t revolve around you. I’m pretty sure these will be your bestyears, so don’t get too comfortable feeling like the big dogs. Because you’re not. You’re a bunch of small town hicks. Deal with it.

Someone you wish could forgive you.

Right now..I’m not sure there’s actually anyone upset with me! I try to resolve problems with people as soon as I can. I dislike conflict vehemently.

Someone you’ve drifted away from.

A really good friend of mine that I grew up with since…well, kindergarten was kind of severed from my life this year. We have but show choir together, and are both busy otherwise, so we never really see each other. But, that’s kind of changing now that we have lunch together. It’s nice to have TheDancingQueen back in my life.

And then there’s MissHolly. We were inseparable for nearly two years. We may as well have been joined at the hip. We got to liking each other, which took a turn for the worst once I began feeling a little cornered. I know she never meant to, but I just felt a little lost. I didn’t really ever talk to anyone but her. And I severed most ties with other friends. So, we stopped talking for a while. I feel like we’re back on track now, and she’s with a good friend of mine. But I’d like to apologize again, and hope we can continue to move toward a better friendship.

That’s all I’ve got..

Ciao!

Day 10

Someone You Don’t Talk to As Much As You Like

Hmm..let’s go with my friend TheLittleMermaid and Cinderella. We did this theatre camp/program together over the summer, and got pretty close. Sadly, they live in the next state over, around an hour away, and that’s too far to drive for my parents’ liking.

Cinderella was just a great friend that I took to instantly, and vice versa. There are always people you say that about, but we really just clicked. She’s possibly one of the sweetest, most down-to-earth, talented people I’ve been able to meet. I miss her tons.

TheLittleMermaid is just another crazy friend. She and I have ALL kinds of fun when we talk, and she knows what’s going on in my life. She’s also super talented, hilarious, sweet, and ditsy. I absolutely love her, and miss her more than I can express.

I’m a bit tired this eve after a long snow day of nothingness, so I’ll leave it at this for now.

Ciao.